I like to think I'm not too much of a sheep. People who agree with whatever you say are a bit annoying. I've known a couple of people like that and sometimes I would find it amusing to say one thing and let them agree and then say the opposite to let them agree. Maybe … Continue reading All the single ladies (put your hands up)
This is totally going to screw up the chronology of the diary entries but hey ho. I've gotten behind on the blog and I've been avoiding social media. The social media bit meant I got two weeks in without realising Handmaid's Tale has come back on TV. Shocking. Thank goodness for the Guardian alerting me … Continue reading 19th June: Self pity party
Do you see this dog? This dog looks like a dog who isn't allowed in a cafe. I knew that from its optimistic little face as I opened the floor, but the cafe was empty when I arrived so OF COURSE I let my new best friend take shelter from the rain with us. Unfortunately … Continue reading 11th June: Painty little feet
Well the title says it all really. I had a hard time. A really hard time and cried a lot, which I know is a common occurance but CRAZY crying this time. But I did collect this sun cream clickety click click here from Amazon. I'd heard good things about the Body Shop spf 50 … Continue reading 9th June: Just a shitty day. Shitty McShit Shit
My therapist actually said it can be a good idea to draw up a wishlist of what you want in a man before you start dating. I think the idea is that once you start dating you can get swept up in the fun / romance / lust and waste your time and emotions on … Continue reading My Perfect Man
It was just me and Emily today, which happens a lot and I'm normally fine with but today I just feel really lonely. I'm also really stressed about how I'll cope when I go back to work. Mostly the thought of getting a strong willed baby out the door before 8am...a strong willed baby that … Continue reading 7th June: Feeling lonely
If you read my last two posts you will be aware this was a joke. This is not different, I cry a lot. I went to a barbecue at my ex's parents house as I want Emily to get used to his mother as she will be looking after her a couple of days when … Continue reading 2nd June: Thought I would try something different and just cry and cry
Fucking hell it hurts. You may have seen this coming, or you might not. Either way I bet it hit you like a ton of bricks. The realisation that the person you thought would be with you for the rest of your life is going. That you aren't the most important person to them anymore, … Continue reading To the woman whose husband just left
This is a really boring one, feel free to ignore. I just feel like I need to do an entry for every day as I told myself I would...which is stupid. But anyhoo: It was my last counselling session, after ten sessions I feel like I should have some profound learnings to report back on … Continue reading 22nd May: Counselling and Pizza
NB : The photo has nothing to do with the article. I searched 'Mental Health' in the WordPress gallery and this inexplicably came up and I liked it. One of my close friends is like a self help / psychology / counselling book expert now. She mentioned the theory of attachment styles to me and … Continue reading What kind of ‘Attached’ are you?
So I technically can get things done when I'm looking after Emily. She is slowly gaining the ability to sit and amuse herself. But she does like a lot of attention and has a very strong interest in the cat food. I've worked out that if I put Emily at the far end of the … Continue reading 7th May: A tiny traitor
So today was a nice day, we went to visit Emily's dad. Had a walk with the dog in the woods and lunch at Bettys. I enjoyed the day spent together but now I feel a lot of sadness about what we could be missing out on. I'm too tired to write more, and it … Continue reading 5th May: Feeling blue
Inanimate objects are my enemy. Today I was slicing a plum and remembered buying the knife to take with us to the village hall we hired for the wedding. We had a big pile of limes and lemons to put in the G&Ts so we needed a knife to cut them with (photo below for … Continue reading 1st May: Caterpillars and Chickens
So I got rather sweary on my last post. Maybe a bit too many uses of the word fuck. Every now and then I get pretty angry at the situation. It's ironic how the post a couple of days before was showing off about Rita giving me a metaphorical gold star in counselling. Anyway I'm … Continue reading 26th April: Must apologise for all that flagrant language. Oopso
All the ways I am angry right now. Photo completely unrelated but cute. Click on it for ranty husband hating rage.
I don't know if you've ever had one of those moments where you feel like your whole world has just come crashing down? Where you kind of knew this moment was coming but the hideousness of the reality of the situation wipes you off your feet. It takes everything you've got away from you. Your … Continue reading Thank God for good women
She also keeps telling me that I am grieving, I think it is really helpful to talk about divorce in terms of grief and loss rather than heartache.
"everything will be alright in the end, if it isn't alright it isn't the end and things can only get better"