19th June: Self pity party

This is totally going to screw up the chronology of the diary entries but hey ho. I've gotten behind on the blog and I've been avoiding social media. The social media bit meant I got two weeks in without realising Handmaid's Tale has come back on TV. Shocking. Thank goodness for the Guardian alerting me … Continue reading 19th June: Self pity party

13th June: No title

Couldn't think of a title. Morning at Gingerbread meet up with the single mums and then into York afterwards. I got a picture of Lendal Bridge (which I do most weeks even though it's the same photo) Then I was on the look out for a daily gratitude journal as I thought it would keep … Continue reading 13th June: No title

A letter to my baby and her squishy little cheeks

Dear Daughter I love to kiss you on the cheek I love how soft your baby skin is I love how squishy those chubby cheeks are I love to feel the cosy warmth of them when you are snoozing in my bed I love to feel the cool air on one cheek and the warmth … Continue reading A letter to my baby and her squishy little cheeks

My pregnancy overhshare part three: the second trimester

The middle bit. The easy bit. The no symptoms bit. The bit where you feel so fine you can forget you are pregnant! Fucking liars. Oh my word, every bit of pregnancy sucks. The nausea wears off but for me the headaches and back ache hit in full force around week 15. I did have … Continue reading My pregnancy overhshare part three: the second trimester

13th June: Brunching babes

One of my friends was back from Stockholm so we had a brunch out with our five baby girls, one toddler girl and the mamas. We always go to Fields Kitchen in Sherburn as there is plenty of space for highchairs and pushchairs. I spent many months visiting Fields bouncing a baby on one side … Continue reading 13th June: Brunching babes

11th June: Painty little feet

Do you see this dog? This dog looks like a dog who isn't allowed in a cafe. I knew that from its optimistic little face as I opened the floor, but the cafe was empty when I arrived so OF COURSE I let my new best friend take shelter from the rain with us. Unfortunately … Continue reading 11th June: Painty little feet

10th June: A better day

After my Sunday afternoon shit show my friend suggested we meet in York for cake and sympathy. Emily and I were supposed to go swimming beforehand but Emily was up for a lie in and therefore so was I. We met at Hilda and Jane's near the City Walls on the Racecourse side of town. … Continue reading 10th June: A better day

9th June: Just a shitty day. Shitty McShit Shit

Well the title says it all really. I had a hard time. A really hard time and cried a lot, which I know is a common occurance but CRAZY crying this time. But I did collect this sun cream clickety click click here from Amazon. I'd heard good things about the Body Shop spf 50 … Continue reading 9th June: Just a shitty day. Shitty McShit Shit

York Charity Shopping

Toddler boots: £1.50 size 6 so might be a while until she fits them but nevermind Sparkly shoes 🙂 I was really happy to find these. £4 seem nearly new from Next. (If you are size three and like gold heels they had three pairs at Sue Ryder which were 👌🏻) £2 Nutmeg, current size … Continue reading York Charity Shopping

8th June: York Pride

I was feeling shitty last night and messaging a friend having a right old whinge. She suggested Emily and I come to York early and have tea and chat at hers before we wander into the city to meet one of our other single mum friends to follow the Pride march onto the racecourse. We … Continue reading 8th June: York Pride

My Perfect Man

My therapist actually said it can be a good idea to draw up a wishlist of what you want in a man before you start dating. I think the idea is that once you start dating you can get swept up in the fun / romance / lust and waste your time and emotions on … Continue reading My Perfect Man

7th June: Feeling lonely

It was just me and Emily today, which happens a lot and I'm normally fine with but today I just feel really lonely. I'm also really stressed about how I'll cope when I go back to work. Mostly the thought of getting a strong willed baby out the door before 8am...a strong willed baby that … Continue reading 7th June: Feeling lonely

6th June: Everything I did. Literally Everything

A day in the life of... How boring you may be thinking. Well whatever, someone said to me 'I don't know how you do it' so I thought I might as well post a typical day for us. However I don't really do typical days, I'm not good at routine but here was our Thursday. … Continue reading 6th June: Everything I did. Literally Everything

4th June: A naughty day of treats in York

I haven't been to baby cinema since I got dumped so I was definitely making sure I saw Aladdin at Everyman York. We got the train from Sherburn as its only £5 and arrived early at the cinema, here we are waiting for the screen to open Although it was busy we had a sofa … Continue reading 4th June: A naughty day of treats in York

My oh my this baby is beautiful. Thanks Austhorpe Photography

We have had a few shoots with Austhorpe Photography from a pregnancy shoot to a Halloween shoot and a Mummy and Me shoot (which is my header on the home page). Emily has generally LOVED being the centre of attention and smiled like a little angel. So Claire at Austhorpe Photography in Garforth asked if … Continue reading My oh my this baby is beautiful. Thanks Austhorpe Photography

3rd June: Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming

Swimming is better than crying. Sink or swim. Swim, swim, swim. I'm actually fairly shit at swimming but I finally got around to taking Emily swimming in the hope she won't be quite so shit. So here is a photo of me in a bikini because it's my blog and I'll use it to post … Continue reading 3rd June: Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming

2nd June: Thought I would try something different and just cry and cry

If you read my last two posts you will be aware this was a joke. This is not different, I cry a lot. I went to a barbecue at my ex's parents house as I want Emily to get used to his mother as she will be looking after her a couple of days when … Continue reading 2nd June: Thought I would try something different and just cry and cry

1st June: New month, new walls, same old crying

So my ex came over to decorate Emily's bedroom. Emily hasn't had a bedroom yet even though she is nine months old as my ex absolutely could not give up having constant access to his enormous computer and weights and bench set up. No no, that wouldn't be possible. It's not like pregnant women enjoy … Continue reading 1st June: New month, new walls, same old crying

30th May: So ranty, so angry. In summary husbands, boilers and cars are all TWATS

So I've definitely complained about this before but here I go again MY HUSBAND LEFT ME WHILST I'M ON MATERNITY LEAVE it's out of order isn't it?! So now I have zero income other than child maintenance. And my car was a £500 twat recently and now my boiler joined in the fun costing me … Continue reading 30th May: So ranty, so angry. In summary husbands, boilers and cars are all TWATS

29th May: Treat yo’self

If you are an avid subscriber and have very little to fill your memory space you may remember I bought this cheap wooden walker which seemed really sturdy and heavy but started tipping and scared me. So I found this on Facebook marketplace for £5 which is much better. One of my friends did actually … Continue reading 29th May: Treat yo’self

27th and 28th May: yawn but look at these pinafores

I am now really far behind and can remember zero interesting facts about last week. Emily's dad came to visit and then his mother and grandmother did the next day. Such exciting news. But I did find these super cute pinafore at Jo Jo Maman Bebe online and at £11 each they are cheaper than … Continue reading 27th and 28th May: yawn but look at these pinafores

To the woman whose husband just left

Fucking hell it hurts. You may have seen this coming, or you might not. Either way I bet it hit you like a ton of bricks. The realisation that the person you thought would be with you for the rest of your life is going. That you aren't the most important person to them anymore, … Continue reading To the woman whose husband just left

26th May: A PROPER good Sunday

My sister was there to mind the baby so I got the luxury of a solo bathroom time to shower. Then my Dad came over and we all wandered over to Berts Barrow for coffee and cake in the barn / shed. My sister did the babywearing which gave my poor tired body a break, … Continue reading 26th May: A PROPER good Sunday

24th May: Piglets and Pals

It was a lovely day, sunny, hanging with single mama friends. Lots of gorgeous little ones having loads of fun together. Baby animals. Emily had her first sand experience (taste). I got an ice cream and dipped it in my coffee (try it). Just all round good stuff. Photo essay below:

23rd May: A disappointment of a cream tea

Thursdays are for Gingerbread meet ups in York but I like to make use of being there so have a little trip somewhere and either buy loads of charity stuff or take a million photos. Someone suggested I have a look around Acomb as there are a few charity shops, someone else suggested I take … Continue reading 23rd May: A disappointment of a cream tea

Books for a divorcing single mum

Here are a few books that I've enjoyed since finding out that 'till death do us part' actually meant 2.5 years and a baby. I'm not bitter, I'm not bitter at all. (I've actually read way way more as I'm constantly reading but not constantly reading about divorce, do message me if you like a … Continue reading Books for a divorcing single mum